I am the most optimistic person I know, but sometimes I have bad days. Considering we are living in a pandemic, it is understandable that there will be bad days. There are so many things beyond our control in the world right now. We are also receiving less social interaction than we are used to, and we are likely worrying about the health of ourselves and our loved ones more than we are used to. We may also be struggling financially or with the illness or death of a loved one.
Not all days can be good days in pandmeicland.
Today, I have had another rough day. Not for any specific reason but a series of reasons that culminated in a difficult day. I am exhausted from all the uncertainty and the anxiety about what life will look like tomorrow and wondering if the people I care about and the rest of the world be okay.
The world we live in today is hard. I can push myself as much as I want to stay on top of the different things I am working on, but that does not mean I am not allowed to have a rough day and take it easy when I need to. This afternoon, I had to take a break from my job searching to take care of myself. I also had to fight the urge to work on my book project as a form of distraction since it is the only thing I can control right now.
I took a break and went for a walk with Jesse and Igneous by the lake. The sun was out and it was a beautiful day. It was exactly what I needed. We had a nice aperitivo together and just spent time together. It was exactly what I needed.
I am in the middle of applying for jobs and getting responses back from PhDs. Most people who has applied for jobs or PhDs over an extended period of time can tell you it comes with a lot of rejection. Rejection is a part of life, but after so much of it, you really need to take a break and step away before it eats at your soul. So today, I did that.
But tomorrow is another day—another day to look back through my list of strengths and write about how I can add value to a team. It is another day to get a yes on something that I am looking forward to. If tomorrow is not that day, there is always the next.